Debilitating,
swift burst of anxiety.
“One day at a time.”
– Grace Y. Estevez – Reddy
Dread
Unease
Feel so flushed also displaced,
loose control of my own space,
slowly shift, balance my weight.
hear all emotions debate.
My face falls fast on the ground,
nervously I look around,
can not help but to stare down,
anxious smile becomes a frown.
So embarrassed, forced to see,
what your mind must think of me,
look at you to quickly find,
all the doubts I hold inside.
The floor transforms to quicksand,
suddenly notice your hand,
showing me you understand,
ease my tremble, love expands.
Sweat beads swiftly spread throughout,
water moistens my dry mouth.
Inner strength appears to sprout,
confidence chases all doubts.
Stable forces grasp my feet,
with no room left for defeat.
Stand so solid on concrete,
self assured, whole and complete.
– Grace Y. Estevez – Reddy
Be Yourself
Attract the right people,
by always being you.
Stand tall like a steeple,
remain forever true.
Do not change for others,
by hiding how you think.
Never dim your colors,
or your self pride will sink.
Acceptance may gleam bright,
but at times it will not.
Be true to your own light,
to prevent inner knots.
Fifty Fifty chances,
a risk that you must take.
Acting brings advancement,
but makes real hearts feel fake.
Those that are likeminded,
will enjoy your real ways.
Souls should not be guided,
to gain another’s praise.
Stand by your pure nature,
letting true self fly free.
It will melt all glaciers,
so all clear eyes can see.
– Grace Y. Estevez – Reddy
Time off
Taking a short break,
helps recalibrate the mind.
Clearing up tension.
– Grace Y. Estevez – Reddy
Anxious
He forgot how to socialize,
silent hellos were amplified.
Unable to just vocalize,
responded slow, acts simplified.
He swallowed hard to gain control,
both sweaty hands made tensions grow,
wishing so hard to play his role,
but did not understands this show.
He threw his arms searching the sky,
a soothing light pierced him inside.
Great confidence flung his soul high,
then gleamed so bright, with inner pride.
He took steps towards positive,
this life was his prerogative,
all lessons were evocative,
eliminating negative.
He gained control, no longer scared,
his heart and soul finally dared.
The ones he loved will remain there,
as for the rest, he did not care.
He took his time and felt so calm,
the future resting on his palm,
anxiety soothed with a psalm,
self assurance, his healing balm.
– Grace Y. Estevez – Reddy
Mending
Deep pain dissolve as tears are shed,
holding them in, creates pure dread,
lingered feelings, grasp to then spread,
depression comes to kill hopes dead.
Anxious thoughts hit, no where to hide,
feel such a hallow pain inside,
so overwhelming, all peace dies,
so hard to swallow, lips chap dry.
Encaged body, feels so alone,
motive is lost, feet turn to stone,
social dependence live in phones,
everyone cares, love goes unknown.
Shed salty tears, sweet ones appear,
cries become laughs, bright essence nears,
kiss on the face dissolves all fears,
“Stay in the present”, sounds so clear.
“One day at a time” ships yesterday,
each passing step brings better ways,
tomorrow is here, bliss starts today,
joy is a choice, without delays.
Confidence comes to peel off masks,
heals emotions, eases all tasks.
Self assurance will rarely ask,
instead feels calm enough to bask.
– Grace Y. Estevez- Reddy
Ready or not
Hiding from the world.
Confronting every jitter.
Facing a new life.
– Grace Y. Estevez- Reddy
Hidden
Silently screaming,
expressive distress filled eyes,
lips forming a smile.
– Grace Y. Estevez-Reddy
Bathe
When life takes a turn
and feels a bit bent,
I prepare a bath
made up of intent.
Warm running water
creates a sound base,
a calmness soon lurks
erasing the chase.
I then add cologne
florida water,
shut both of my eyes
see my grandmother.
Her smile softly says,
make it like a tea,
a mixture of herbs
and relaxing leaves.
She says her goodbyes
to then drift away,
adding my flowers,
submerged I then lay.
All troubles and aches
are lifted at once,
the bath is then drained
anxiety gone.
– Grace Y. Estevez-Reddy